Category: Books

  • My New Book Title: Lean on Me

    So, for the last long while, I’ve been writing my third book. A month after I turned in the rough draft to my publisher, we still didn’t have a title. I asked my editor Adria to suggest a few after she read it. In one of her emails, the word Leaning came up.

    Slightly in jest and slightly serious, I wrote back, what about Lean on Me?

    She responded and said she actually considered that, but dismissed it, not sure if it was too cheesy or not.

    I loved it. I searched for the lyrics of yes, that old song Lean on Me, and realized it conveys so much the heart of the book.

    Sometimes in our lives
    We all have pain, we all have sorrow
    But if we are wise
    We know that there’s always tomorrow

    Lean on me when you’re not strong
    And I’ll be your friend, I’ll help you carry on
    For it won’t be long
    ‘Til I’m gonna need somebody to lean on

    Please, swallow your pride
    If I have things you need to borrow
    For no one can fill those of your needs
    That you won’t let show

    You just call on me, brother, when you need a hand
    We all need somebody to lean on
    I just might have a problem that you’ll understand
    We all need somebody to lean on

    Lean on me when you’re not strong
    And I’ll be your friend, I’ll help you carry on
    For it won’t be long
    ‘Til I’m gonna need somebody to lean on

    You just call on me, brother, when you need a hand
    We all need somebody to lean on
    I just might have a problem that you’ll understand
    We all need somebody to lean on

    If there is a load
    You have to bear that you can’t carry
    I’m right up the road, I’ll share your load
    If you just call me…

    Coming to pages and eReader screens September 2014:

    Lean On Me: The Value of Intentional, Vulnerable, and Consistent Community.

    It’s a story of a girl who learned a lot about needing community and being community and the beautiful themes woven within. It’s a story of how God used likely and unlikely people to communicate His love and hope. It’s a story of crisis and redemption.

    It’s a story for all of us and I can’t wait to share more with you as we continue developing it and the resources around it.

    Thank you. Thank you for reading. For believing in me. For being with me on this journey. For letting me lean on you to rest for a while, and for leaning on me and trusting me.

  • My New Book Title: Lean on Me

    So, for the last long while, I’ve been writing my third book. A month after I turned in the rough draft to my publisher, we still didn’t have a title. I asked my editor Adria to suggest a few after she read it. In one of her emails, the word Leaning came up.

    Slightly in jest and slightly serious, I wrote back, what about Lean on Me?

    She responded and said she actually considered that, but dismissed it, not sure if it was too cheesy or not.

    I loved it. I searched for the lyrics of yes, that old song Lean on Me, and realized it conveys so much the heart of the book.

    Sometimes in our lives
    We all have pain, we all have sorrow
    But if we are wise
    We know that there’s always tomorrow

    Lean on me when you’re not strong
    And I’ll be your friend, I’ll help you carry on
    For it won’t be long
    ‘Til I’m gonna need somebody to lean on

    Please, swallow your pride
    If I have things you need to borrow
    For no one can fill those of your needs
    That you won’t let show

    You just call on me, brother, when you need a hand
    We all need somebody to lean on
    I just might have a problem that you’ll understand
    We all need somebody to lean on

    Lean on me when you’re not strong
    And I’ll be your friend, I’ll help you carry on
    For it won’t be long
    ‘Til I’m gonna need somebody to lean on

    You just call on me, brother, when you need a hand
    We all need somebody to lean on
    I just might have a problem that you’ll understand
    We all need somebody to lean on

    If there is a load
    You have to bear that you can’t carry
    I’m right up the road, I’ll share your load
    If you just call me…

    Coming to pages and eReader screens September 2014:

    Lean On Me: The Value of Intentional, Vulnerable, and Consistent Community.

    It’s a story of a girl who learned a lot about needing community and being community and the beautiful themes woven within. It’s a story of how God used likely and unlikely people to communicate His love and hope. It’s a story of crisis and redemption.

    It’s a story for all of us and I can’t wait to share more with you as we continue developing it and the resources around it.

    Thank you. Thank you for reading. For believing in me. For being with me on this journey. For letting me lean on you to rest for a while, and for leaning on me and trusting me.

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  • ANNOUNCEMENT: The Revised and Updated Re-Release of Mad Church Disease (+ more!)

    Backstory: In 2005, because of the decisions she made to overwork herself and stay busy “doing” things for God and not “being” with Him, in combination with being in a toxic church environment, a girl named Anne found herself in the hospital for  a week, a battery of tests tried to determine why there was so much inflammation in her digestive system.

    It wasn’t just that. She gained forty pounds in the two years she was serving in the church full time. She was having panic attacks and acid reflux and was on a diet of espresso and sleeping pills just so she could wake up and go to sleep each and every day.

    After the hospital visit, she quit her job, got counseling, and set out on a mission to help anyone serving in ministry stay healthy – volunteers, staff, and friends of those who serve.

    That girl was me.

    Anne Jackson Anne Marie Miller Mad Church Disease
    This was the first time I saw my book Mad Church Disease in a store – Borders on West End in Nashville! It was a cool moment!

    In 2009, the book Mad Church Disease: Overcoming the Burnout Epidemic released through a traditional publisher.

    In February 2013, I found out from a  bookstore that when he tried to replenish his stock of Mad Church Disease, the order came back with the error: OUT OF PRINT. Because of whatever happens in the publishing world, they chose not to reprint it after there were none left which meant I never had a chance to buy any. Except for audio, eBook and used copies, they were literally all gone. And those are slowly disappearing too.

    This came with no warning from the publisher. After many emails and many hours studying the original contract, I learned this “Out of Print” scare was really a blessing in disguise. Why?

    Because now, I have all the rights to every format. Now, I can update it with so, so, so much I have learned from listening to others and in my own walk. I can make study guides for it and offer staff assessments and…well, the possibilities are endless!

    (Plus I get to put my sweet new name on it: Anne Marie Miller.)

    mad-church-revisedSince I am wrapping up writing Book #3, I will spend this summer re-writing, revising, updating, scheming, praying over and for this new book.

    I won’t lie – when I first heard from the bookstore manager that it was out of print, I was angry. Not because of anything monetary, but because several times a week I hear from someone that says this book truly helped them.

    This message is NOT one that can be pulled from the shelves and I vowed to fight tooth-and-nail to make that happen.

    I didn’t happen in the way I imagined it, but it happend in the way it was meant to be.

    In the fall, after my new website launches, the next “big thing” will be the re-release of Mad Church Disease (and its many helpful counterparts).

    For instance…

    • The updated book (eBook or print)
    • An updated study guide
    • A staff or team assessment tool for leaders
    • Coaching options
    • Web classes
    • Private consultations
    • Church workshops
    • Retreats

    With the launch of the new website and all that is and has changed, I want to be sure to keep in touch with those who want to hear about what this new release has to offer. It would mean the world to me if you’d let me have your email address (I won’t do anything with it other than to keep in touch).

    With that, for everyone who is subscribed before the re-launch of Mad Church Disease, I promise you not only will you be the first to know, you’ll be the first to have a chance to get it – and a few other things – for free. That won’t be a public offering.

    You can sign up below! (*if you have a pop-up or ad block extension, it may not work. if that’s the case, click here and it will go to the form).

    Any questions? I’m all ears.

    Subscribe to get updates & get my free eBook “Interlude” today!


  • Four Things You Must Know!

    Please accept my apologies for being such a sporadic writer as of late. Inconsistency is one of my least favorite traits and online, I’ve been extremely inconsistent. However, there are four things coming up in the next couple of months that I thought you simply must know!

    1) I am finishing my third book. It does not have a title at this point but I am hoping to email the complete first draft to my publisher by this time next week. It has been the most difficult thing to write because, well, it has caused me to reflect much more deeply and try to use words in the best way possible.

    I was 27 when I wrote Mad Church Disease. 29 when I wrote Permission to Speak Freely. I’m almost 33.5 (yes, I celebrate half birthdays) so I pray that whatever maturity I have gained in the last four years shows. This book will release in Spring 2014, likely in April.

    2) New website PLUS bringing back the old FlowerDust. Since it has been over three months that I have not been Anne Jackson, I realize I should probably change my website. I hired a talented lad named Sam to work on this and he feverishly is doing so. All of my old domains will redirect to the new website once it has launched (likely in August) as to not lose anyone in the shuffle.

    I’m excited to reestablish a home online that is both true to my name and has all the good posts from FlowerDust. If you’ve been around since the beginning, you remember that old FlowerDust.net blog and it’s 1000 posts that we are combing through and refining. So all that material (from 2005 – 2011) will be available again. Woo!

    3) New email list opportunities!. Everyone I admire says I need one. I trust them. With the launch of the new website, I will start offering a special email list that has what the website has, but then has a little bit more. I’m excited about the way email lists have returned and I’m excited to share new content with you! What do you think about the resurrection of the email list?

    4) I was going to include a fourth thing you must know, but I decided it was worthy of its own little announcement (and no, mom, I’m not pregnant). How about I talk about that one Monday. Cool? Cool.

    See you Monday. You will not want to miss this bit of exciting news! If you don’t follow me on Twitter or Facebook, you might want to just in case.

    I don’t like hyping things up, but the announcement on Monday is super, super exciting!

    Have a great weekend –

    Anne Marie Miller

  • My New Book

    For the last six months (or three years, depending on who you ask), I’ve been working on my third book. At first, it was going to be about riding my bike across the country and learning lessons in community along the way. But then some not-so-great life stuff happened and I needed a respite. A year later, I thought it was going to be about how to live in the present moment. That idea didn’t work out so well because I learned along the way I was doing too darn good at running from the present moment.

    But then my editor said to not think about it for six months. Don’t talk to him about it for six months. Do nothing about it for six months.

    I’m so glad God has put smart people in my life.

    During that six months, I was able to take a breath and look back at what was making my heart beat. What was the one message I had to tell? That I’ve lived, am living, and will always live and love?

    We landed it. I’ve been working on it since.

    Presently, it is very much in the [Crappy] First Draft* situation. But at the end of this month, I get to turn this [C]FD in to Thomas Nelson and in about ten months or so, you’ll be able to buy it.

    People have asked me what it’s about…and I wish I had a title for it (for some reason, that part just hasn’t illuminated itself to us) so, in a nut shell (as it sits now, which is both subject and likely to change in the editing process):

    It’s about vulnerability in relationships, particularly those with other believers. It’s going beyond the word “community” and talks how to figure out how you relate to others, and themes of vulnerable and committed relationships. It offers characteristics for both when you “need a person” and for when you need to “be the person” as we carry each other through life.

    I’d love to hear any feedback you have – questions you have about relationships, good experiences, lessons learned, what you feel you need when it comes to having functioning healthy community in the Body of Christ. Feel free to leave it in the comments below or on Twitter or Facebook!

    Thanks for hanging in the interlude with me the past three years!

    *[C]FD is my PG13 translation of an Anne Lamott expression.

     

  • Self-Consciousness and Pride

    I only brought two books with me on the Ride:Well Tour: Mary Oliver’s Dream Work (my favorite collection of hers) and Walking on Water by Madeline L’Engle. I’m a fairly uncommitted reader, so I thought that would be enough.

    L’Engle refers to several books in Walking on Water, two of which I found myself desperately needing. One being her own A Circle of Quiet, and also Rilke’s Letters to a Young Poet. It just so happened that A Circle of Quiet is in my own library of books, and with two taps on my phone, I had Rilke’s on the way to meet me in Nashville when the tour stopped there.

    I finished Rilke’s the two nights I was home, and plucked A Circle of Quiet off the top shelf in my office to put in my messenger bag. Also, since my church (St. Bartholomew’s) was hosting me, from their bookstore, I picked up a copy of Evangelicals on the Canterbury Trail – a book exploring the movement of protestants into the Anglican/Episcopalian tradition, since I currently find myself in such a transition.

    Only eleven pages into A Circle of Quiet, I came across these words I found quite worthy of sharing. I’d love your thoughts on them:

    The Greeks had a word for ultimate self-consciousness which I find illuminating: hubris: pride: pride in the sense of putting oneself in the center of the universe. The strange and terrible thing is that this kind of total self-consciousness invariably ends in self-annihilation. The great tragedians have always understood this, from Sophocles to Shakespeare. We witness it in history in such people as Tiberius, Eva Peròn, Hitler.

    I was timid about putting forth most of these thoughts, but this kind of timidity is itself a form of pride. The moment that humility becomes self-conscious, it becomes hubris. One cannot be humble and aware of oneself at the same time. Therefore, the act of creating – painting a picture, singing a song, writing a story – is a humble act? This was a new thought to me. Humility is throwing oneself away in complete concentration on something or someone else.

    I tweeted this specific line a few days ago: “One cannot be humble and aware of oneself at the same time,” and surprisingly received some negative feedback. I personally thought it was a brilliant, but others didn’t share the sentiment.

    Oswald Chambers hinted on something similar once:

    Yet you will never be able to measure fully what God will do through you if you have a right-standing relationship with Jesus Christ…it is actually by His mercy that He does not let you know it.”

    Y tu? What do you think of humility, self-awareness, and self-consciousness and how they play together?

    When we notice how we are being humble, or sacrificing for one thing or another, I think that could be a form of pride. It’s in the unaware, subconscious moments we don’t notice when it’s truly God working through us, and we’re allowing him to by getting out of the way.

  • The True Meaning of Companion (and what it has to do with a Big Mac)

    One final post (although I wish I could do many more!) on the book we’ve been talking about, In Praise of Slowness. This book is so rich in wisdom, in inspiration, and is just so darn well-written (and currently still $6 on Amazon) I seriously can’t recommend it enough. It has done for me what Seth Godin’s work did for me five or six years ago – it adds a “lens” through which I view how I live part of my life out.

    In a chapter on food, we learn that the true meaning of the word “companion” is “sharing bread with someone”…and if you go back and look through the responses of our survey on food, you’ll notice a few people wish to slow down and simply share a meal with family or friends.

    That makes total sense. How often do you hear, “Gosh, I wish that dinner was so much shorter. I hated every minute of the food, the company, the conversation…” Instead, when you have these slower-paced dinners, or even a meal out with friends, the time flies, and you’ve suddenly found yourself at that table for three hours.

    And you want more of that.

    Another large theme was simply eating healthier. Going more local/natural, etc. A common excuse for this is money, and at first glance, sometimes it seems like you pay a lot more going to Whole Foods for a lot less food, than if you went to Wal-Mart (who yes, may carry organic food — but I avoid for other reasons) or Kroger.

    We all know, for the most part, the quality of the Whole Foods-ish products is better, is fair-trade, not made by an eight year old in a sugar field, and more than likely is organic. If you’ve been to a Farmer’s Market, you know some things (meats, pastas, sauces, cheeses) can be a bit pricey.

    So why pay $16/lb for some steak at your Farmer’s Market when you can get it for half that at Wal-Mart?

    The obvious answer is quality. I could literally drive to the farm I get my meat from at the Farmer’s Market and see how it’s made from start to finish. I actually plan on doing this later this summer. If you’ve ever seen Fast Food Nation or Supersize Me (free on Hulu) or The Future of Food (free on Hulu) or any of the other food-advocate type movies, you see the terrible way most food in most supermarkets or chain stores is grown, what pesticides and preservatives are on them, what hidden salts, sugars, syrups, and chemicals they’re laced with, how the animals are given steroids and treated, where your fast food really comes from and what it does, and the way that all of this is disguised to the public.

    I am NOT a conspiracy theorist. But since I have been paying a little more for quality food, it’s amazing how I feel. And I also realize with the amount of eating out I was doing: a $6 bag of Farmer’s Market pasta that will make eight servings is still less than one value meal at Chick-fil-A.

    We don’t mind paying for convenience. That’s the way our culture of busyness has been tricked into thinking healthy things are expensive while we are actually paying so much more for so much less every time we eat out.

    Totally perspective.

    Organic produce, or any produce you can trace back to its origins (and not have to worry if the same chemical they use to make Agent Orange is the pesticide they sprayed on your lettuce) is fairly inexpensive. Buy a few tomatoes, add some herbs, simmer them up, and all of the sudden you have fresh, organic tomato sauce for $2-3 instead of paying $6-12 for the organic kind in a jar. That’s just one example of something you can make that’s less expensive, and better for you, than getting something in a bright colored jar.

    I have decided to stick to the following rules when it comes to food. Exceptions are always made. Nobody can pull this off perfectly, but the exceptions to the rules are few and far between.

    • Know where the food came from
    • Read the ingredients
    • Craving XYZ restaurant? How can we make this at home for less?
    • PLAN AHEAD and shop according to that plan
    • Just stay away from the processed stuff.
    • Buy local when possible (especially produce and meat!)
    • If at all possible, use the oven or stove and not the microwave, even though it takes longer.

    Cooking takes time. And energy. And some days you don’t have that energy. But what can be adjusted in your schedule so you have an hour set aside to cook? Or can you spend a couple hours one night, or on a weekend cooking ahead of time so you have something healthy already to go on the days when life is crazy.

    The affordability issue — for most people — ourselves included — is a priority thing. A family will typically spend more money on entertainment or things like cell phone bills than they do on food. Buying cheap food now may seem like the answer, but with all those strange chemicals racing around in our bodies, it won’t be the answer in the long run when someone has to get treated for obesity related diseases, or because of all the chemicals we’ve slowly been ingesting.

    It’s important to think about the long-term effects this will have on us, our children (who have a shorter life-expectancy than we do…!) instead of the short-term fix of a quick meal in front of the TV before we rush off to doing something that in reality, may not be as important that sharing healthy food, and celebrating that element of creation and nature, with the people we’ve been given in life.

  • Quick Survey: FOOD

    If there is one thing you could change about your relationship with food, what would it be?

    Would it be what you ate?

    What you didn’t eat?

    How much or how little you eat?

    Where you eat?

    How fast you eat?

    Where the stuff you eat comes from?

    Who you eat it with?

    Or…..(you fill in the blank)…

    For me, I wish I would eat more regularly instead of at random times. I also wish I could say no to chocolate at times. Or pasta. And I’m trying to eat more locally and once we get back from our trip, plant some herbs. (Until then, we steal from our neighbors – they know.) Fast food really isn’t a big problem for me because I’ve watched enough documentaries on it that it just grosses me out. But sometimes in airports, it’s the only thing around.

    So…go. What would you change?