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  • Baby Jesus, Santa, and Valium

    There once was a time when Bing Crosby movies and the aroma of pine mixed with cinnamon would leave me warm and fuzzy inside. I’d wander the aisles of trendy stationary stores with the hopes of picking out the perfect Christmas cards. There were two kinds of cards I needed to purchase: the cards for almost everyone, and the cards for the people I thought I needed to impress. The everyday cards were a little more generic and signed simply with a holiday greeting and my name. For the people I had to impress, the cards were die cut, uniquely sized and mailed in a shimmery envelope. My signature was perfectly executed underneath a witty and memorable sign off. Because we all know that how you sign your Christmas card determines where you end up in this world.

    This year, Christmas doesn’t feel so warm and fuzzy. Label me The Grinch, or Mrs. Scrooge, or just plain apathetic, but I have no Christmas tree up. There are no stockings hung on the mantle over my electric fireplace (hey, it’s a rental, okay?) and no snowmen adorning my coffee table.

    There’s no nativity scene with an oddly posed baby Jesus, no twinkly lights, and no Santa.

    I do however, have Valium. And at times, it seems like the only thing getting me through this high pressure, high anxiety season.

    Now, before the shame-on-you emails begin flooding in, accusing me of using a sedative as a seasonal crutch, medication looks different to everyone. To some it’s a little extra comfort in their egg nog. Others, shopping. Eating. Sleeping. Whathaveyou.

    Mine just happens to be a little green pill.

    Is my holiday coping method healthy? I have to think it’s better for my wallet, my cholesterol, and my hips than say, a trip to the mall or seven pounds of fudgy cookies.

    But that’s just me.

    For many people, Christmas is merry and bright. For others, sometimes our holiday cheer isn’t turned up to ten. And I’m realizing that’s okay. Different seasons bring different seasons, and there’s much to be learned, whatever side of the fence you fall on this year.

    Here’s to making it through another holiday with all the hope, grace (and coping mechanisms if necessary) one can handle. I wish you the best. May we all begin to love our flaws, our imperfections, and our potential as we close out this year, and ring in the next.

  • would you die for them?

    cambodia

    earlier this week, i mentioned that last friday, i had a chance to chat some with gary haugen, the ceo/president of international justice mission.? my friend ben introduced me to my friend jeff who introduced me to my friend bethany who coordinated this entire phone call.

    as a sidebar, i think it’s interesting we all have known each other for months online, but only recently met in person at catalyst back in october.

    as most of you know, the trip i took to africa in february changed my world.? to experience poverty and hope and life and death and fear and courage in eight days didn’t just leave me reactive…it left me transformed.

    and just when you think your eyes have been open as wide as they possibly can be, you’re shown something new.? that happened when i read gary’s book “just courage.”

    from the jacket:

    “There must be more to the Christian life than this–more than church each Sunday and waving to my neighbors and giving some clothes to Goodwill when I go through my closet each spring.”

    These aren’t bad things, of course. But they’re safe and comfortable and easy. And there’s a reason they’re not satisfying your desire for something more significant and meaningful–we’re created by God for adventure.

    International Justice Mission president Gary Haugen has found that engaging in the fight for justice is the most deeply satisfying way of life. This book shows how we too can be a part of God’s great expedition.

    after reading his book, and our conversation on friday, i’ve been left with some nuggets and then haunted with a question i’ll ask at the end.? here’s a bullet point list of some things gary said:

    *We know how to bring evangelism, food, water, and housing to the poor. These are beginning to become mainstream.? We can do these things, and do them comfortably.

    *What do we do about the problem of violence and the brutal abuse of power in people who are tortured, murdered, raped, or manipulated in violent ways? We are not familiar with these things.? We don’t know what to do.? We don’t feel empowered.

    *Why is violence so intimidating? It’s intentional.? Not the result of bad luck or viruses or bad weather.? It is the force of humans intending to hurt other humans.

    *Violence is scary.? It fights back.

    *If you feed someone, you’re not going to be attacked by hunger. But when you attack violence, usually it’s going to fight back.? There is a test of courage that is special when fighting violence.

    *Violence is not as powerful as we think. It happens because we are letting people get away with it.

    *The oppressors of the poor are not brave.? It’s a crime of opportunity.? As soon as they sense a threat, they begin to leave. Gary told a story of how he saw one of the worst areas he had ever seen in his life on a visit to Asia.? Years later, the brothels where hundreds of children were traded and sold into the sex tourism industry, had disappeared and his fifteen year old niece was helping lead a Vacation Bible School in the same spot.? The violence had been confronted and it left.

    *Violent people depend on lies and deception. If the world saw the truth about violence, they wouldn’t let it continue.

    *We need to learn the truth about what’s happening and expose it.? We need to become hard-nosed truth tellers.

      violence needs to be confronted with truth.? when you confront violence, it fights back.? millions of people are slaves to violent acts — slave and sex trafficking, murder, rape — and in order to end it, we have to acknowledge it, face it, and quite possibly, take a very large risk.

      a risk that may cost some of us our lives.

      and thus the black-and-white, extreme side of me asks…

      would i die for someone’s freedom?

      would you?

    • i wrote this just for you.

      it’s okay to slow down.

      don’t check your email tonight.

      leave your computer at work.

      turn the TV off and read a book.

      go for a walk.

      go for a drive.

      go for a beer.

      go with your friends.

      go with your wife.

      go with your husband.

      go with your kids.

      tell your wife she’s beautiful.

      tell your husband he’s all you need.

      tell your kids they make you proud.

      step away from the addiction.

      whatever it is.

      even if it’s just for a night.

      and look up into the stars.

      into the clouds.

      into the sky.

      into the eyes.

      of someone you love.

      and love.

    • sexy books

      there are a lot of books out there.

      a lot.

      as i was browsing the shelves at borders and barnes and noble this week, i noticed a complete lack of books on poverty, injustice or social awareness (excluding the consumeristic sociology kind — there are plenty of books on food, technology, and pop culture).

      there was one book i saw which captivated and challenged me. it is a photo journal called what matters.

      other than that, zilch.

      someone once said that people don’t pay attention to missions or justice because it’s not controversial enough.? not sexy enough.? why do you think that is the case? what would make a book on these issues not only attractive, but motivating?

    • question for you

      i stole this from my nashville-book-publisher-ceo-friend mr. michael hyatt, who asked this question via twitter yesterday:

      What would you do if you were brave?

      i’m still working on my response.

      what would you do?

    • Wii + Guitar Hero III Bundle Giveaway!

      First, let’s celebrate! You guys donated over 1000 shoes last week so our sponsor, Underology, will be making their 500 shoe match!? After they make the match, that will put us over 10,000 shoes! AMAZING!

      This week the 50000shoes.com is kicking up the fun a notch with a great new giveaway!

      It’s Christmas…

      We have a Wii…

      And we have the Guitar Hero III Bundle (with guitar)!

      (Like actually physically have them…we’re not on some waiting list or fighting for them at Best Buy!)

      If you make the highest donation amount between now and midnight on Saturday, December 20, you’ll win the Wii & the Guitar Hero III bundle!

      (Just so you know, that’s a $400 retail value!? So if you were thinking of getting a Wii and Guitar Hero III for someone for Christmas, donate shoes instead and you just might win!? And make a huge difference for hundreds of people who need shoes along the way!)

      We are unable to list the highest donation on the site, but if you are wanting to know what it is so you can beat it, just shoot me a message!

      OH YES…we also have another match challenge this week!? If we are able to raise 500 pairs of shoes, an anonymous donor will match that with 500 more pairs of shoes!

      Let’s get this party started!

      Donate at http://www.50000shoes.com

    • opportunity

      friday i had the chance to hang out via conference call with some of the staff of the international justice mission, including their president and CEO gary haugen, and euphrony from the blog inspired to action.

      i have a lot to write about this (after i process through the three pages of notes i typed), but i wanted to throw you this quote that stands out to me and get your thoughts.

      “the oppression of the poor isn’t driven by the power of the oppressor but the vulnerability of the oppressed.” – gary haugen

      discuss.

      what does this mean to you?

    • friday lyrics

      today’s edition of friday lyrics come from one of my favorite bands sleeping at last.? god has used their words and music to heal me, to help me process and to encourage me.? the song that’s been stuck on repeat is called say. (you can preview/download it here – this song is on the album “ghosts” but their album “keep no score” is also incredible.)

      this week i needed to make a decision to follow and trust what god was putting on my heart instead of maybe the most popular and logical decision.? as the song says “say what you really want to say…and the truest of forms will show…finally you’ll find your soul.” when we’re honest with ourselves it’s amazing how much clarity that brings to our lives and our actions.

      what’s your friday lyric? share in the comments.

      Say what you really want to say
      And the truest of forms will show
      Finally you’ll find your soul

      They impose the endless fight
      To always be perfect.
      It seems they have been chosen
      To be above the rest.
      But the contradiction stands
      Between these perfect lives
      And the words that they’ve misread…
      There was no reading.

      Say all the things that you really want to say
      The truest of forms will show,
      Finally you’ll find your soul.
      Say all the things that you really want to say
      The truest of forms will show
      And finally you’ll find your soul.

      The landscapes of being
      Are endlessly competing, back and forth
      For an answer to existence
      That we can never find,
      In all of the places that we’ve searched out,
      In all of the pulses that we’ve taken…
      There was no reading.

      Say all the things that you really want to say
      Then you’ll find, the truest of forms will show
      And finally you’ll find your soul.

      Say all the things that you really want to say
      Then you’ll find, the truest of forms will show
      And finally we’ll find our souls.

      Give us the answers
      And the ability to hear

      The landscapes of being
      Are endlessly competing, back and forth
      For an answer to existence
      That we can understand.

      Perhaps we’re looking far too closely.

      We can’t see
      All the evidence in its entirety…
      The air in our lungs,
      The complexity of our love.

      Say all the things that you really want to say
      Then you’ll find, the truest of forms will show
      And finally you’ll find your soul.
      Say all the things that you really want to say.

      Say what you really want to say
      And the truest of forms will show,
      Finally you’ll find your soul.