Anne Marie Miller

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  • talking to the big guy upstairs

    if you wouldn’t mind, say a wee prayer for yours truly. tonight is the night…the night i speak at the net, our high school program, on one of our campuses (the mesquite campus, across from the town east mall if any of you dfw people want to drop by – next to target!)? anyway, the party begins at 7 pm, and i’ll probably be doing my part of the talk around 7:30-7:45.? after me, the student pastor is going to talk for 15 minutes, and then we’re going to do a Q&A.

    the whole night is about sex and porn so please pray that god will have our hearts and minds completely and use us to speak whatever truth he wants them to hear tonight.? also, for the kids…after it’s all over we are going to be hanging out to talk to anyone who wants to meet individually, so that they will have courage to approach us, and that we’ll be able to help them…

  • tension

    for a rope to have tension,
    two forces must be pulling
    as fiercely as possible
    in opposite directions

    yet called out
    trying to balance
    and understand
    unity
    freedom
    humility
    kingdom

  • weekend thought…it’s my birthday, when’s yours?

    i turn 27 on monday.? if you’re new here, read my last birthday post to catch up.

    a friend turned me on to a new band.? and consequently, i found this song.? which i officially and hereby dub the song of my twenty-seventh year.

    There are songs to be sung,
    And pages to be filled with memories.
    There are roads to be traveled in places I have never seen.
    There are postcards to send,
    And so much beauty just to take in.
    There are dreams to be chased,
    And friends to be held more dearly.
    There is love to be seen more clearly.
    There are fears to be faced,
    And tremblings to understand.
    There are new days to brave,
    And all this foolish pride
    To lay down in your hands.

    [ode to new grass – the gloria record]

    i am taking monday off work, spending the first part of the day at a spa getting massaged, facialed [extracted, if necessary], manicured, pedicured and the last part of the day with twenty-five-ish of some of my dearest friends (and newest friends) at a dinner & movie screening of the new Jim Carrey film, 23.

    Fun will be had.? Photos will be taken.

    When’s your birthday?

  • smoke and illumination [a valentine’s day memoir]

    no linen napkins. no salad forks.
    [crinkle of cereal bags]
    the air is cold. hot tea.
    [i stayed in the car, thank you]
    wrong turn on main street.
    [never listen to your wife’s directions]
    parking. walking. windy. stamp on right hand.
    [should have left my coat in the car]
    walking. again. windy.
    [jaywalker]
    illumination through the cigarette smoke
    [holding your hand tight. drunken lovers quarrel]
    don’t spend your whole life, waiting for your whole life

  • sleep in heavenly peace

    does anyone out there have problems sleeping? i have tried most of the typical expensive “sleep aids” and they do nothing for me, so i am currently on an anti-seizure medicine that is off labeled for insomnia. it helps me fall asleep but evidently it’s not a very deep sleep, as i wake up every hour or so when the train outside goes by. so, except for maybe one night this month, i have not been able to sleep through the night. if i increase the dosage, it just makes me feel drunk the next day but doesn’t help me stay asleep any better.

    besides drugging myself into a coma, does anyone have any advice? i do breathing exercises and the whole “head-to-toe” relaxation, but like i said, the problem isn’t going to sleep – it is staying there.

  • Weigh In, Week 3

    Ok…I am wondering if Los was eating too much at re:Create or what, but we haven’t had an official Fat Ragamuffin weigh in for a while. Anyway, here is the latest from Texas…

    1/1=162
    1/8=159
    1/15=158
    1/22=156
    1/31=154
    2/6=152
    2/13=150

    Still pretty steady. Surprising considered my Friday night binge on Pei Wei and The Nestle Cookie Store. Also, I thought to help hold my lazy butt accountable, I’d post the dates I worked out. Minimum Goal is 3 a week.

    Last week:
    Tuesday – 35 cardio
    Wednesday – 35 cardio
    Thursday – 25 cardio, 15 weights
    Saturday – 35 cardio

    Some of that was actual jogging. As in not walking. And I’m still alive! Woohoo!

    The rest of you – speak up! Let the news be heard. How’s it going?

  • today, deux

    was very busy.

    but nothing got done.

    ever had a day like that?

  • alone

    i have no idea why in the world my spirit is reacting to anna nicole smith’s death the way it is.? i am SO incredibly heartbroken over it.? i never really followed her much, except whatever was on a TV interview i’d happen to catch or the trimspa ads.? she grew up just an hour or so away from dallas, so the media here has been all over it – talking to people in her hometown of mexia (ma-hee-ah), just a little south of dallas.

    in her last interview, which was shown on the today show this morning, you could see she had given up hope.? there was not a single light on in her eyes.? her slouched over shoulders and the way her non-expressive facial movements made me want to go back in time, find her, and be her friend.

    all the woman needed was a friend.

    they keep saying over and over again – she died alone…she died alone…

    that just really, really sucks.? she was such a beautiful woman, who was no more or less human than you or me.

  • yikes – my speaking schedule?

    so, a few times in my blogging history, i have mentioned my fear of public speaking, and a promise i made saying if any opportunities were provided, i would go for it.

    opportunity one was while we were in scotland, at a nazarene district’s gathering. i spoke on communication in the church, and then had a time for Q&A. pastors from england, both west and east coast scotland, and some from ireland – even ghana – were there.

    me.
    texan.
    accent.
    i say “ya’ll” a lot.

    so…it was an interesting experience between them understanding me and me understanding them!

    a few weeks ago, one of our student pastors over at our town east campus had been informed about my “dirty girls” article in relevant and asked if i’d be willing to be a speaker for their weekly high school program. they are doing a sex series, and wanted a girl’s perspective on porn and sex. without hesitation, i said yes…and over the last several days have been really excited about it! first, hanging out in a student ministry environment again will be awesome and it’s a topic i would love to talk about.

    today, i started getting nervous. just a little. but the fact it’s in the very near future (February 21), i feel as if it’s creeping up on me!

    following that, on february 25, i will be returning to powertalk live on dallas’ own 89.7 powerfm. it’s a one-hour show that discusses current issues for teens and twenties. it will be my third time on the show, but i’m not really nervous about radio. it’s never really freaked me out all that much. if you’d like, you can listen to the june 25 interview below.

    89.7 PowerFM Power Talk June 25 – Women and Porn Addiction

    all that to say please keep me in your prayers as i prepare for these talks. and if you are in the dallas area, feel free to come out to “the net” on february 21 at 7 pm.

    don’t live in dallas? check out the radio interview. you can listen to live at 897powerfm.com at 9 pm central time on sunday, february 25.

    leave me some love…i need it! :)