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  • weekend thought…recommended by YOU

    there are only 36 blogs to which i subscribe. i check out probably double or triple that on any given week, but i am only subscribed to 36. some of them haven’t updated for a while. i’m getting bored.

    who should i read? why?

    (by the way, i’ve added some easy options if you don’t subscribe to flowerdust.net and would like to. they are over there on the right…see ’em? very well.)

  • good vs. evil

    last week, i got to meet with published author, lake pointe member, and overall amazing woman, mary demuth. and recently, we added to our staff the knowledgeble kurt bruner, who was previously on staff at focus on the family, and an author of several books.

    both mary and kurt graciously read over the articles i’ve written in the last year, and responded with encouragement and feedback. something that has impacted me the most was something kurt noted:

    I encourage you to try telling a few uplifting stories to test your craft. Strange as it may sound, it is easier to write about evil characters in drama, murder in fiction and painful situations in non-fiction than it is to portray the good and beautiful as truly appealing. That is why Tolkien is considered by many to be the greatest writer of the 20th century ? he managed to portray the heavy darkness of evil without blinking, yet makes you yearn for the light of goodness.

    Yeah, he totally nailed me on that one.

    I have a little over a month until my next article is technically “due” and at this point, I know I must venture into the realm of uplifting. Easier said than done. I am by default a melancholy soul, and although consider all things joy, and realize God wants to give me abundant joy, it is easier for me to write about my mistakes and shortcomings (because they end with redemption).

    I would really appreciate your prayers as I listen to the Spirit’s voice while determining what I am supposed to write about next month. And if any of you have advice or encouragement or even writers you love that have a more positive slant to their writing, feel free to share their links or articles.

  • a sleeping pill after a long dinner

    frail…
    hanging on by a thread
    [strong, quiet, red]
    yet barely attached, and reflections
    of the past cause envy in the present
    soaking and swimming in thoughts
    [to prove that i’m not worthy of this task before me]
    as if you didn’t already know
    fear of their expectations
    my slavery to them
    actually hold some value
    disappointed me, you
    but hidden behind a wall of enamel
    i’m still protected from their knowledge of the truth
    not yours, mine
    ends justifying the means
    presumably
    at least at this juncture
    and here
    i wait.

  • girls just wanna have fun

    i have been an extreme girl over the last few days: being emotional, making myself sick on chocolate truffles, wearing pointy-toed shoes and watching bridget jones 2. so, although most of my readers are guys, and i wouldn’t expect for you to post (but hey, if you feel you can contribute, please do…) i wanted to post a girly post about some of my favorite girl things i can’t live without. maybe guys, you can post your manly things you can’t live without. and if you can, link to the product so those of us who might be interested in exploring it further can do so!

    my list:

    [food]

    hershey’s chocolate truffles (65%)
    any chocolate pudding
    italian food (sans mushrooms)
    diet dr. pepper
    decaf mochas
    sweet corn

    [clothing and accessories]
    gap curvy jeans (which are on sale!)
    camisoles to go under everything
    ann marino pointy shoes (as featured in the profile picture)
    beaded jewelry
    tattoos (#3 will be coming soon!)

    [skin/hair care]

    Kose Seikisho White Mask (it’s really black!)
    Boots Botanics Conditioning Clay Mask
    Oil of Olay Regenerist Line
    TIGI products (After Party, Superstar)
    Fructis Sleek & Shine (Shampoo, Conditioner, Leave-In & Hairspray)

    What little luxuries must you have?

  • costly

    i wrote about this several months ago, but i read this again today and decided to repost it.? I think it fits in with some of the stuff we’ve been discussing, and to be quite honest, my mind has been completely empty the last few days.

    Cheap grace is the deadly enemy of our Church. We are fighting today for costly grace.

    Cheap grace means grace sold on the market like cheapjack?s wares. The sacraments, the forgiveness of sin, and the consolations of religion are thrown away at cut prices?

    Cheap grace means the justification of sin without the justification of the sinner?

    Cheap grace is the preaching of forgiveness without requiring repentance, baptism without church discipline, communion without confession, absolution without personal confession.

    Cheap grace is grace without discipleship?

    Costly grace is the treasure hidden in the field; for the sake of it, a man will gladly go and sell all that he has?it is the kingly rule of Christ, for whose sake a man will pluck out the eye which causes him to stumble.

    Costly grace is the gospel which must be sought again and again, the gift that must be asked for, the door at which one must knock.

    Dietrich Bonhoeffer

  • being the body…identity crisis (part 2)

    if you haven’t read the most recent comments on being the body (part 1), i recommend you do so before continuing onward. there are a lot of good thoughts, examples, and truths shared by so many of you.

    two common themes which showed up and i’d like to discuss further are:

    1. we live in a consumeristic culture, so it’s difficult for the church to reach people in ways where they don’t feel comfortable or justified in “going” to church. some questions brought up in the book: since when is the gospel of christ comfortable? since when is confronting sin comfortable? grace is all encompassing and forgiveness covers all sin, as well as the fact we serve and worship a loving god, but the truth is god cannot stand to look at us if it weren’t for the cross. does this message get watered down? not necessarily from the pulpit or platform, but from the layers the church (local) adds in order to “bring people in” so they may be reached?
    2. the church’s call is to go and make disciples. in what ways do you see local churches obeying this call? is there too much emphasis placed on “saving people” and as RobP said in the comments, once any sort of commitment is asked or sacrifice is required, people bail out because they have been conditioned by society to get something out of every investment. do we also condition them by the bells and whistles and programs and not communicate the necessary sacrifice in being a christ-follower?
  • being the body…identity crisis (part 1)

    thanks for all your thoughts & prayers. i am in my layover and KCI and enjoying a very slow but free wifi connection. i thought i’d take this chance to start a discussion on here. i hope you’ll participate.

    our teaching pastor, wes hamilton, let me borrow a book by chuck colson called “being the body.” if you have even the smallest bit of your heart that you love the church with, i strongly recommend you getting this book. it is almost 500 pages long and a very deep read, but it has been one of the most intriguing books i’ve tackled in a while (I’m only on page 130 287).

    i have been taking notes throughout, and thought i’d post a little bit about what i’m learning and hopefully open up some discussion. the first part of the book is about how the current church is in the midst of an identity crisis. here are some bullet points i took out that i’d love for you to think about and discuss.

    Misconceptions of the Church/Identity Crisis

    -The Church is a building

    1. The word church is from the Greek word Ekklesia, which means gathering of people. It really was used more in a political sense in the New Testament times but believers began using it to describe their gatherings
    2. Instead of an abundance of “go and tell” it has become “come and see”

    -The Church goer is a consumer

    1. What’s in it for me?
    2. Go where you “feel” good – where you feel “led”
    3. Many churches aim to provide support over salvation
    4. Help…over holiness
    5. And convey the sense of “spiritual equality” and not God-ordained authority
    6. Many churches also unintentionally encourage spectators instead of participators
    7. People are invited to “discover themselves” in churches — and self realization and God realization are diametrically opposed
    8. Consumerism works against the unity of the universal Church. You know you have heard conversations about people church hopping because of better programs, and I know it may not be the heart of any particular church to “steal” these people away, but let’s not be stupid here. It happens. And unity is the single greatest evangelical tool the church has — It shows that Jesus is who he claimed to be.

    -Ending Thoughts

    It’s no surprise people who aren’t religious or don’t go to church don’t understand its identity and mission. In fact, I am sitting in front of several ladies who are talking about the fact they have no clue about anything religious (They also think Kwanzaa is an Asian holiday). But when Christians don’t know what the church is…it’s a CRISIS.

    your thoughts?

    (next topic: fellowship)

  • crazy.hectic.grief

    my grandfather passed away early this morning. it was expected; in fact, he was supposed to pass away two years ago…what a fighter!? anyway, his memorial service is tomorrow evening, and i will be out traveling a lot the next few days.

    i will be leaving dallas at 6:30 am monday morning and have a layover in kansas city for three hours (so if any of my old kc friends want to come party at the awesome KCI, i will be there from 8 am to 11 am…just call or email me!)? then it’s off to LAX where i pick up a car and drive to san diego (it is much cheaper to do that than to fly into SD).? then the memorial service, sleep, and leaving SD tuesday morning at 9:30 am to head back into LA where i hope to catch up with some old friends and maybe…just maybe…meet mr. carlos whittaker face to face…

    tuesday night i crash on a couch of the generous martinez family, and wake up early for my 6:40 am flight back to dallas.? i get back in dallas at 1:30 pm and head into work to send some stuff to print!? whew!

    (i think i really typed all this out so i can know what i’m doing and if i forget i can check my blog…)

    aside all the crazy/hectic aspects, please keep my family in your prayers as many of us are traveling to and fro, and that we will be able to give my grandfather the wonderful and sweet memorial he deserves.

    he was the first guy to give me a really “girly” outfit (i was a tomboy) and always encouraged me to show my feminine side (now, i am a bit too girly, but i thank him for that).? he would always bring me books when he would visit and we’d go on walks together.? he was a very sweet man, who became a christian in his late 80’s.

    thanks for your thoughts and prayers…

  • weekend thought…wonder

    lately, i’ve been wondering so much about the history of my faith. i’m not questioning the inerrant truths of the bible, but my soul is lacking the rich past of the christ-followers who journeyed centuries before me; their traditions (and most importantly the meaning behind those traditions), their ideals, their loves, god’s glorification through them.

    my soul is lacking the mystical and unexplainable aspects of my faith.

    i think sometimes we try too hard to explain the unexplainable and in doing so, we somehow lessen the power of the mystery and beauty of our heavenly father has; and unfortunately we confine our existence on the earth to glorify him into a neat little box.

    although biblical application to our lives is necessary for our survival, not to mention our very worship and communion with god, why must we always have an answer for everything that happens in life? why must we justify everything?

    we drain the wonder out of all things wonderful.

    and then the only thing we are left wondering about is why our lives lack the spark and mystery we had as children…in a time before we knew it all.

    in a time where all we did was wonder.