bull. crap.

i am more affected by this blog than i care to let on. the more comments i get, the more inspired i am to write. the more daily visitors i have, the more i feel like i am making a difference. and all that is bull crap. i am relying far too much on this thing to make me feel successful in my ministry or in relationships. and that’s nothing but a lie.

There are some lyrics by JET that kinda describe this for me.

You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
Til all you had spilled over

Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know
Where you are
You are

When all that you wanted
And all that you have
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to

When it’s hard to be ourselves
It’s not to be someone else
Still everything’s so far away
That you forget who you are
You are

When all that you wanted
And all that you have
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to

(By the way, I’m not sad or depressed or moody or funky. I feel fine. Just learning some things.)