I know it’s been a while since there was something of substance on here. It’s been a busy couple of weeks, and there are a lot of things happening…decisions to be made…feelings to sort through…and some freelance design on top of it all to keep me busy.
Yesterday I wasn’t feeling too great, so I canceled my appointments and just kind of sat around and talked to God a lot. During that time, I checked my email a zillion times, and in doing that, got some updates on some people I know. I realized something HUGE I’ve got to work through. Here’s my dilemma:
When there is someone in my life I don’t really care for (you know…sandpaper people) and something bad happens to them…I can’t help but feel a little bit happy. I know, it’s terrible but in a way I feel justified…like, “Yeah, you’re just getting what you deserve, sucker! It’s about time!” Awful, awful, awful. The feelings of “dog’h” arrive shortly after.
So…new goal for life (or at least for today, and then tomorrow. and the next day) – Try and look at people, especially the people I’m not so fond of, with the eyes of Christ. I think of how it is our crap he died for, bled for, and was beaten to a bloody pulp for, yet he never looks at us when something bad happens and thinks, “Yeah, you deserve it!”
Never.
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5 responses to “Never.”
You and me both
good point. very good point. i do that sometimes, and then i’m ashamed of it. i don’t have anything philisophical to say about it. it just happens. But as you said, they are the “anyone” that Christ made himself available for just like us.
tracy
God bless it indeed. :)
I’m scheduled to visit a Baptist church this weekend. I’ll let you know how it goes. I’ve been told “3 tries”.. to give them each 3 tries before making a final “judgment call”, so I feel it will be many more weeks before I’m able to make any real progress in my search. :)
Bless you.
ok… hottie… wow – that picture is smokin’
i’ve been dealing with the same problem for years now. i don’t have a spiritual or good answer for that. i just know it’s wrong and i’m working on it. i’m human but Christ in me is what i need to keep me convicted and working on being a better person.