Category: Church

  • paradox

    clearly in this structure
    love; freedom
    sovereignty, never questioned
    but human justification
    can be tempting
    is it my lack of faith?
    or simply a whisper saying
    draw near

    seek…and you will find.

    Holy Cross – San Clemente, Rome
    (Detail of Apse mosaic, 12th Century)

  • how last night went

    it was amazing. thanks for praying. the nerves were calmed well before i went up on stage. i don’t remember most of what i said, which is a good thing…because it probably means it wasn’t me doing the talking. we had a great Q&A with them afterwards (lots of really thought-provoking questions you would never imagine a teenager would write about sex) and i can’t believe i haven’t done this sooner. it was definitely a great experience (thanks to jamie and dalton for making me feel comfortable!) and i’d do it again in a heartbeat! thanks again for all your prayers, and emails, and text messages. you guys are awesome and it’s great to know the Church is out there covering me in prayer – even if i’ve never met you! some of you emailed and asked if you could get a copy of the night’s message. well, we did record the evening, and as soon as i get the mp3, i’ll upload and link to it.

    sunday night at 9pm (CDT) i’ll be on 89.7 PowerFM here in Dallas on PowerTalk Live. you can listen online here if you want to. same subject matter – porn! we will open the phone lines up around 9:15-9:20pm to take live questions on air.? you can call 214-787-1897 locally or 1-866-787-1897 if you’re not from DFW. i know a few girls have emailed me about their stories, so if you have the time and the desire, it would be great to have you girls (and guys) call in (even from out of state) to share your stories.

  • tension

    for a rope to have tension,
    two forces must be pulling
    as fiercely as possible
    in opposite directions

    yet called out
    trying to balance
    and understand
    unity
    freedom
    humility
    kingdom

  • yikes – my speaking schedule?

    so, a few times in my blogging history, i have mentioned my fear of public speaking, and a promise i made saying if any opportunities were provided, i would go for it.

    opportunity one was while we were in scotland, at a nazarene district’s gathering. i spoke on communication in the church, and then had a time for Q&A. pastors from england, both west and east coast scotland, and some from ireland – even ghana – were there.

    me.
    texan.
    accent.
    i say “ya’ll” a lot.

    so…it was an interesting experience between them understanding me and me understanding them!

    a few weeks ago, one of our student pastors over at our town east campus had been informed about my “dirty girls” article in relevant and asked if i’d be willing to be a speaker for their weekly high school program. they are doing a sex series, and wanted a girl’s perspective on porn and sex. without hesitation, i said yes…and over the last several days have been really excited about it! first, hanging out in a student ministry environment again will be awesome and it’s a topic i would love to talk about.

    today, i started getting nervous. just a little. but the fact it’s in the very near future (February 21), i feel as if it’s creeping up on me!

    following that, on february 25, i will be returning to powertalk live on dallas’ own 89.7 powerfm. it’s a one-hour show that discusses current issues for teens and twenties. it will be my third time on the show, but i’m not really nervous about radio. it’s never really freaked me out all that much. if you’d like, you can listen to the june 25 interview below.

    89.7 PowerFM Power Talk June 25 – Women and Porn Addiction

    all that to say please keep me in your prayers as i prepare for these talks. and if you are in the dallas area, feel free to come out to “the net” on february 21 at 7 pm.

    don’t live in dallas? check out the radio interview. you can listen to live at 897powerfm.com at 9 pm central time on sunday, february 25.

    leave me some love…i need it! :)

  • praying for sorrow

    I can never think of a time when i have prayed for sorrow. Invited true brokenness into my life. Usually, it comes as an unwelcomed guest. However, during my devotional time last week, I was thinking about the life of Joseph. I read this:

    God never uses anybody to a large degree, until after He breaks that one all to pieces. Joseph had more sorrow than all the other sons of Jacob, and it led him out into a ministry of bread for all nations. For this reason, the Holy Spirit said of him, “Joseph is a fruitful bough?by a well, whose branches run over the wall” (Gen. 49:22). It takes sorrow to widen the soul.

    My prayer that night was one I would never have expected to pray. I’ve prayed to be broken before, but never to the point of sorrow. Praying for sorrow?

    When most people think of sorrow, they think of grief. Dispair. Negativity. Sadness. But the sorrow we should pray for is sorrow without despair.

    If we had never fallen, or were in a glorified state, then the strong torrents of Divine joy would be the normal force to open up all our souls’ capacities; but in a fallen world, sorrow, with despair taken out of it, is the chosen power to reveal ourselves to ourselves. Hence it is sorrow that makes us think deeply, long, and soberly.

    Ecclesiastes 7:3 says:

    Sorrow is better than laughter,
    for sadness has a refining influence on us.

    But what about joy? I think the more refined we are through sorrow, the greater the joy we are able to experience.

    What do you think?

  • Confessions of an Affirmation Junkie

    Ok, so, Lori just posted a comment on the entry below about the book I am supposedly writing. Earlier last week, our new Scottish (Ok, English…but currently Scottish) friend Geoffrey asked something similar on his blog. The few links I was missing in my head were connected on the flight back from Scotland, and I’ve decided to do it. For real this time.
    I am going to write a book.

    It’s probably going to be targeted more towards girls, but guys, you are more than welcome to chip in as well on this question. I read Every Man’s Battle and skimmed through Wild at Heart, so surely there are guys out there who would read something to get inside a woman’s head, right?

    The temporary title and direction I am going is…

    Confessions of an Affirmation Junkie
    (and other taboo topics good girls don’t discuss)


    which is going to encompass the idea of loving God with all our hearts, minds and strength (physical, mental and emotional) – and how there are areas most women struggle and find temptation, yet no one ever talks about…such as porn, emotional affairs, wondering if you married the wrong person, dating and sex, etc., etc.

    That is where I need your help. What are some topics YOU think should be written about that aren’t talked about??? If you’d like to post anonymously, just type in “anonymous” and a fake email for your comment.

    Also, I am sure there are tons of people who read your blog (because you are way cooler than I am…) that would have extremely valuable input on this conversation. I would be completely humbled if you could post this request for people to respond to.

    Thanks for your never-ending support!!

  • Analyze This

    If you search for relgious books containing the word “Church” in the title on Amazon, your results will total somewhere around 69044.

    Do you think we analyze too much and act too little?

  • The Prodigal Church

    Door of Edinburgh Church

    Read the following familiar passage – the Parable of the Prodigal Son. This is what we studied on today before heading out to do surveys & interviews. Before leaving, we discussed it.

    Something illuminated to me as we contemplated was how the Church can be compared to both of the sons. I’m sure this wasn’t the intent, but hey, the Word is a living thing, right? There are churches who represent both sons – the one who wandered away, chased meaningless things, and was left alone in the time of famine. Yet he wised up, humbled himself and came back. His father rejoiced.

    The other son could represent the churches who have always been busy about “the Lord’s Work.” They’ve spent tireless hours, blood, sweat and tears and get a little grumpy when they don’t see the joy the father has over a renewed breath of life.

    I am praying for a fresh spirit to go through our churches. Those who have knowingly or unknowingly wandered will have their hearts softened to return, and for those who have been around for seemingly all time, to be open to new life and celebrate the bride returning to her bridegroom.

    Your thoughts?

    And He said, “A man had two sons.

    “The younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of the estate that falls to me ‘ So he divided his wealth between them.

    And not many days later, the younger son gathered everything together and went on a journey into a distant country, and there he squandered his estate with loose living.

    Now when he had spent everything, a severe famine occurred in that country, and he began to be impoverished.

    So he went and hired himself out to one of the citizens of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.

    And he would have gladly filled his stomach with the pods that the swine were eating, and no one was giving anything to him. But when he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired men have more than enough bread, but I am dying here with hunger! I will get up and go to my father, and will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me as one of your hired men.”‘

    So he got up and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion for him, and ran and embraced him and kissed him.

    And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

    But the father said to his slaves, ‘Quickly bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet; and bring the fattened calf, kill it, and let us eat and celebrate; for this son of mine was dead and has come to life again; he was lost and has been found.’ And they began to celebrate. Now his older son was in the field, and when he came and approached the house, he heard music and dancing.

    And he summoned one of the servants and began inquiring what these things could be.

    And he said to him, ‘Your brother has come, and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has received him back safe and sound.’ But he became angry and was not willing to go in; and his father came out and began pleading with him.

    But he answered and said to his father, ‘Look! For so many years I have been serving you and I have never neglected a command of yours; and yet you have never given me a young goat, so that I might celebrate with my friends; but when this son of yours came, who has devoured your wealth with prostitutes, you killed the fattened calf for him.’

    And he said to him, ‘Son, you have always been with me, and all that is mine is yours. But we had to celebrate and rejoice, for this brother of yours was dead and has begun to live, and was lost and has been found.’”

  • Women and the Church

    I write this post from my newly borrowed 17″ PowerBook. I can honestly say, even on the days I feel fat and bloated (like today), this laptop makes me feel skinny again, as it hangs over a couple of inches on both sides while resting upon my lap.

    Lately, it seems as if a frequented discussion in our circle of friends here has been the woman’s role in the church…should they be “over” things, or leading things, or teaching men or insert any vague & biblically unanswerable question to your liking here.

    My personal and current belief (as my I am young enough to not have established many solid beliefs, but old enough to know the ones I have established could possibly change) is that if God has gifted you in leadership, you’re going to lead, whether you hold the vocational or volunteer role of leader or not. Jesus speaks incredibly highly of women and it’s obvious women were used all throughout history to play roles men couldn’t have played.

    In today’s American church culture, we place such an emphasis on titles, that if a woman doesn’t hold a leadership title, sometimes people get upset because a man who is in a lateral role does get that title, and the American benefits that come with it (pay, notarity, and an office with a window).

    Honestly, why should we even care? God is the one gifting you. God is the one directing where you serve. Pastor/Shepherd is by far the strongest “gift” in my gift mix, so does that mean God screwed up by making me a woman? Hardly. I will probably never serve as a pastor of some church (and really, that’s okay with me, I don’t think I should), but he will place people in my life that I can care for by using the gifts He’s given me.

    All this to say, I think when people get upset about a woman not being able to go “as far” as a man can go in the church (on staff, or in leadership), it’s terribly ironic. We think the church is limiting what a woman can do; when in fact, we are limiting what women can do by placing it in the context of titles and not the global church.

    Your thoughts?