Author: Anne Marie Miller

  • sunday reflections

    I have learnt to love you late, Beauty at once so ancient and so new!
    Saint Augustine

  • weekend thought…competition

    so here i am, taking care of some freelance in my office, space heater 6″ away from my leg…sipping on some “rooibos sunshine” loose leaf tea. my coworker dalton and i have become addicted to rooibos, and there just happens to be a loose leaf tea shop a few miles from the church which has probably a hundred kinds of loose leaf tea. so we have our little tea station in our communications workroom. i’ll admit, we’ve become tea snobs.

    earlier today, as i was getting ready – applying eyeliner or something – one of those thoughts [that you know aren’t your own] pops in my head and says, “Why even bother? You know you can’t compete.”

    I knew exactly what this statement meant and where it came from. I seem to have my brain locked into this “22 years old is the perfect age” mindset. It probably was one of the best years of my life. And now as I creep ever-so-more up on 30, I realize that superfically, aging is something I’m not looking forward to.

    You would never hear me say it aloud, but I am horribly competitive. A few years back, after a fierce game of Uno, we all went to eat. We talked about the game and I said something about how “I’m glad I’m not one of those competitive crazy people.” Steve, normally laid back and not too expressive, smacks his hand down on the table and says, “SWEET JESUS ANNE, YES YOU ARE!”

    After Steve’s statement, the fact I had broken many a Super Nintendo controller in my youth, as well as chalking up several technical fouls during my high school basketball career, I realize – yes, I am extremely competitve.

    This competitive nature also comes in the form of my appearance. The voice that snuck in unexpectedly today was pushing that competitive button – making me feel there’s no way I can physically compete with the beautiful, early-20 year olds that seem to overflow out of the Rockwall city limits.

    Fortunately, a Voice much louder and more important reminded me, “Why do you need to compete, anyway?”

    Eh. Good point.

    Now if only I can convince myself to believe it…

  • surrounded

    i felt incredibly

    warm

    in so many ways last night

    knowing i don’t deserve the

    heater running

    my huge slippers

    favorite pajamas

    the more than adequate comforter wrapping around me

    the more than wonderful person to my right

    or the quietness that whispered me

    and lulled me

    into

    sleep.

  • who you are changes all the time

    i’ll respond
    when things are clearer
    how i long
    to feel Him nearer
    tonight, i was supposed
    to be with you
    instead, alone,
    i had to be
    my brain escaping
    from reality
    and pushing, striving
    to be uniting
    with Him
    in Him only
    can i perceive
    and gain back
    my sanity
    for the madness of
    this world
    washes in
    caves in
    envelops me

  • demolition of things not mortar

    part one [disconnect]

    we have almost been here a year.

    i have met so many wonderful people.
    who have shared in

    1) movies
    2) hundreds of trips to cafes
    3) gallbladder removals
    4) birthday/superbowl/new years/christmas/art showing/parties
    4) and now, rooibos

    (don’t worry mom, it’s not a drug)

    yet in this odd state of sleepiness i am in,
    combined with a weekend of prayer,
    cold weather,
    readings from a prophet

    in the deepest parts
    although i am connected in so many ways
    there is the disconnect

    i see others
    and their connections
    and feel left out
    (not in the third wheel way)(don’t pity me)

    part two [demolition]

    nobody to blame
    but this stupid wall
    that i can’t seem to tear down…

    these bricks of fear
    aren’t held together
    by a justifiable mortar…

    but perfectionism,
    [am i pretty enough?]
    [skinny enough?]
    [funny enough?]
    [normal enough?]

    the things that don’t matter
    and yet…
    they are the hardest…
    to demolish.

  • theft in so many ways

    today is an ice day.
    although where i am, there isn’t any ice.
    so i am sifting through my credit report
    calling people in india,
    promising i am not the person
    who opened a phone account
    and ran up $800.
    and sending them my notarized
    ftc report to prove it.

    identity theft is not fun.
    i have disputed 23 items on my credit report in the last month.
    if you haven’t looked at your credit report lately – please do.

    speaking of theft
    i thank whoever dlink is
    for their open wifi spot
    of which i am partaking.

    as i have no internet at home
    except the blackberry.

  • birthday party

    my birthday is a little over a month away. and after going to christina’s fabuloso fiesta on thursday, i am inspired to have a shindig as well. what should i do?

  • Hopefully I Won’t Get Sued

    Cisco is suing Apple and seeking an injunction to prevent Apple from using Cisco’s “iPhone” US trademark. As of yesterday, Cisco representatives said that a deal was close for licensing the trademark to Apple, however it appears as though Apple’s announcement before a deal was reached may have forced Cisco into the courts.

    “Cisco entered into negotiations with Apple in good faith after Apple repeatedly asked permission to use Cisco’s iPhone name,” said Mark Chandler, senior vice president and general counsel, Cisco. “There is no doubt that Apple’s new phone is very exciting, but they should not be using our trademark without our permission.

    “Today’s iPhone is not tomorrow’s iPhone. The potential for convergence of the home phone, cell phone, work phone and PC is limitless, which is why it is so important for us to protect our brand,” Chandler concluded.

    With its lawsuit, filed in the United States District Court for the Northern District of California, Cisco is seeking an injunction to prevent Apple from copying Cisco’s iPhone trademark.

    Note: While Cisco has the US trademark for “iPhone,” Apple does have the trademark for “iPhone” in some other countries.

    (link MacRumors; thanks Jared)

    ALSO…a new feature added to the iPhone. Meet the iPhone Quattro – Now you can shave while you talk!

  • OH MY GOSH…an iPhone?!?!

    Does everyone HAVE to blog about the iPhone? It has been announced for the last 24 hours and I am already sick of it. It’s like a new Nickelback song. You get in your car, Nickelback’s on. You go to the grocery store, it’s on again. You pick up your dry cleaning, good ol’ Chad’s singing. You go to TGIFriday’s, “Been farrrr away furrr farrr too lonnng”. You simply cannot escape it. And at the end of the day you want to stab your eyes out.

    So is the same with the new iPhone and bloggers! I know half the people in my Google Reader blogged about it (and I love each and every one of you) but it’s just getting silly! :)

    Every party has a pooper and yes, I am pooping on this party. Apple is innovative… We’ve all known that for a while. They are the kings of buzz and I give them props. But it is obvious they have 98% of the blogging community under mind control.